trash

So, today I've been on a mad hunt to find our 2006 & 2007 tax returns. They have mysteriously dissapeared with a myriad of other piles of paperwork. We're getting our taxes done tomorrow. And, being our first time at the new tax place we need to bring in our last three years of tax returns. Too bad I can't find them. I'm sure when Sean gets home he'll search to no avail =[.
Unfortunately, I came across some trash as I searched through tubs of paperwork in the garage. Several years ago I received a letter which has been the hardest thing to date that I've had to "deal" with. I felt so belittled after receiving it, reading it, and then realizing how this person felt about me. It hurt me to the core. At first I saved it so I could respond to all the accusations and questionings of my character. Why I saved it after that is beyond me! So today as I thumbed through one particular pile in a tub, I found the letter. At first, I told myself I wouldn't read it. Eventually I glanced through a several paragraphs of this two page single spaced letter, it all pointed to the fact that I totally suck as a person, friend, leader, etc... I actually let it start to get to me again. Other people were named in it, who never said to me that they had problems or concerns with me. Then, all over again I started to doubt that they are actually my friends and that what was second hand written about them and myself in this letter was even true. I started praying, upset that I had even giving this any time of my day. Then I did what I should have done years ago. I threw it away, hopefully never to be seen by me again. Why I let words on paper cut so deep, I don't know.
So the trash went where the trash belongs. I should have burned it years ago when Sean suggested that I did! Maybe I should listen to Seanie more often. =]

kids that whine.

I'm good at producing them. Great at producing whiners, at least I am as far as Payton is concerned. Funny thing is, I never remember whining much when I was a kid. I do, however, distinctly remember mastering the eye roll. Man, I am not looking forward to when Payton gets that one down. I'm guessing that she is just paying me back for my behavior when I was a youngin. If you have a tip...share the wealth please!

good news...

I'm getting closer and closer to fitting in all my pre-baby clothes. So close I can taste it. What put me over the edge was finally starting to eat better. When I'm pregnant, man do I go to town on the desserts...it's hard to stop that. However, I've finally kicked the habit and combining that with working out, I've been kicking butt! This may not seem very exciting to you but I'm loving it. Ahs yeah! Who knows, maybe I will climb Half Dome again, since I'm still able?!?!

shots for my girl

So, today we're headed to Kaiser for Payton's 5 yr old physical examination. She's only 4, however, to be able to register for kindergarten this April, she needs an exam sooner rather than later. Curious of the amount of shots she would be receiving, I of course googled it. 4 shots, that's how many she will be receiving today! Poor her, she hates shots and even calls them, "pokies". She even begged for the shots that you can sniff up your nose, the flu shot. Obviously, I am bribing her with a present from the gift closet. Wish me luck as I take her in today. My poor baby girl, 4 pokies, ouch!

Cooper Thomas

So. our boy Cooper took his first "walk" today. He is the most amazing, laid back, chill out, 10 month old. Payton and I were in the kitchen. I baited Cooper with a toy and he proceeded to take 6 consecutive steps. It was awesome. I love that Payton and I were able to see. We were clapping and cheering for him. He had a, "what's the big deal?" look on his face! What a great day.

And to think, at one point I thought I would be satisfied with only one child. I was wrong. Thank God...I'm not in charge!

things I love.

I love Jesus and I want Psalm 18:1 to be true in my life, "I LOVE You fervently and devotedly, O Lord, my Strength," I love my husband, I couldn't have a better one, seriously. I love my two kids, Payton and Cooper. I love the beach and being warm. I love cheese, dessert and cereal. I absolutely love my job, working with Jr. High students. Purity, Integrity, and Honesty are HUGE deals to me. I'm excited to start blogging.